Day 13...

Hmmm... Ov-a-dril or not to Ovadril.. this is the question.

So, for all you non-fertility gurus out there. I have successfully stimulated one of my follicles (btw I don't know when they become eggs). Tonight is supposed to be yet-another shot to make me ovulate. Well. I haven't done my homework. I don't know when it is supposed to work, how it is supposed to work, why it works, etc. I do know that we are supposed to do the "babydance" for 3 days starting tomorrow.

I know it's way late in the game to be asking if this is purely selfish on my part. I've had five miscarriages, why would I want to even threaten to have another? Have you seen the world lately? Do you know how many teenagers are getting pregnant? About how many children are up for adoption? ugh. Why am I doing this.

I have been here mentally with many of the past treatments. I am going to let go, and let God. I am going to let His peace wash over me and just take the next step. amen.