Remembering..

I haven't forgotten the hurt of nine years ago today, I losing you. Mr. D. says his heart hurts too. You were the first and we know you are in heaven playing with your brothers and sisters that have also remained there.

Two years ago today we made the decision to stop trying, believing eight is enough. Time fades some of the memories but the pain seems fresh today. They say life comes around full circle. I can see that in others around us. We seem stuck, or maybe it's just me. I'm in a fog today not sure where my feet should lead me. For a few moments it all seems ridiculous and pointless. I know that tomorrow will bring new people and new places and new problems. However I am sad now.

Our lives are well intended and busy, but I want to yell for all to hear:
I HAVE NOT FORGOTTEN.
-C